You know that feeling, the one that’s deep in your gut that’s a result of the dwindling feeling of hope? I’ve been experiencing it too much lately. The advice of a real friend (unfortunately I have had to experience the opportunist once again) over a couple of drinks and apps has brought me here to incite wrath on some keys to provide some release from the mental cogs churning in my head. I’ve been able to shut my mind down especially when running, only concentrating on my gait, breathing, pace calculations and hearing my breath, gusts of wind and my shoes patting the ground like raindrops. Lately, I’ve been performing some manual labour-type actions which has caused my mind to wander and thus the deep thinking evolves into sometimes omniscient thoughts but more often than not, hypothetical ones. An experiment, that’s all this is… but it may shed some light on who I am through the maelstrom of thoughts and feelings I experience on a day to day basis.
Who will read this? Those that I choose and the random search from a random blogger or Googlite. Do I care? No. We are all products of whatever consumerism is peddling and pushing at us at the moment so your assumptions of me at this point are based on society’s constraints and not of who I really am. Hopefully this medium will provide a means of getting to know me better without actually knowing me (should you actually want to). Maybe I will “get to know” myself…
A new beginning… but before that, an end of an ending.
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